remain seated please
permanece sentados, por favorSunday, October 13, 2002
midterm. project. paper. those three words make me so sad because that's what i have to do this week. and it doesn't help that i just came back from possibly the worst, wait scratch that, the WORST softball game that i've played in. it started off just fine, but in the second inning there was the turning point. bases loaded, two out, and we're out in the field. i get a nice routine grounder, which i glove. i look down, and because i was anticipating making the toss, the ball had come out and rolled two feet away from me. the ball dribbling out of my glove was the thing that cost us the game. you might say that no paul, it's not your fault, and blah blah blah, but in my eyes, i had the opportunity to stop the rally right there. two batters later, they ended up hitting a grand slam, that put us behind for good. two feet from making the out. one tight squeeze of the glove from making the out. one/hundredth of a second of laziness and one whole night of regrets. i pride myself on my defense, and i let my team down today. but the season ain't over yet. we'll bounce back, and i'm sure of that.
there are a line of events that happen so that a specific incident will occur. when i'm driving and see an accident, i know that if i had left a second earlier or later, that car could have been mine. all these events in this line may not seem important, but they lead up to an incident that you will never be able to foresee. i was talking about this stuff to andy, and it was pretty interesting. just solidified the idea that things actually do happen for a reason. like tonight, if i hadn't have made that error, we would have been up by 2 runs and our team wouldn't have been as demoralized as it was. ok no more softball talk now, enough of that for one day. now i can feel sad about the fact that i have to go to a cs project meeting tonight to finish up the project, and when i get back i get to study for a cs midterm. sounds exciting huh? not really. at all.
i wonder what would have happened if i had gone to another school...
