remain seated please
permanece sentados, por favorWednesday, December 18, 2002
finally finished. relieved.
i passed one of my cs classes, so that's a good thing. it was a close one, but whew. ahh. i love the Lord.
now it all depends on what i got in my other cs class. if i passed, then my break will be amazing. if i didn't, it won't. as simple as that. not too worried though, everything is in God's control now. i studied my butt off this year for finals, so hopefully i'll get some good results.
i should be sleeping especially if i'm planning on driving home tomorrow. can't wait.
socal........ here i come!!!!!!!!!1
Monday, December 16, 2002
it just started raining hard like 30 minutes ago. i stepped outside to go get a jumbo jack from roy and i realized that water was close to coming in from our front door. our apt is stupidly built so the rain from the roof comes to the first floor, which is our floor. that would be ok except the drains are tiny and the floor is slanted towards us, which made the water like 1.5 inches deep in front of our doorstep.
billy went out there to try to do some stuff to push the water away. i decided i would help and be brave by going out there with no shoes since i didn't want mine to get wet. i ran out there with a broom, ready to sweep away that stupid water. the water was freezing. i turned around and went back inside to my jumbo jack, and i ate happily while billy saved our apartment. man that was funny.
back to studying playa!
stomach flu is gone.
sudden onset of pain has arrived.
roy is extremely caring. even in the midst of finals, he finds time to feed his delicate frogs. what a nice guy.
hahahahhahaha.
Wednesday, December 11, 2002
tried to take a nap. couldn't sleep though. should be depressed, but i'm not gonna let myself be.
i think i have the stomach flu. symptoms: the runs, nausea, the urge to yak.
don't feel sorry for me though, cuz i'm not. no more excuses for not doing well anymore, no matter how tough things might get. just gotta take care of bidness right? haha.
anyways, almost time to go to the library, wish me luck!
Tuesday, December 10, 2002
roy is getting very popular these days. he seems to be popping up in everyone's blog. remember this though, he was in mine first.
we went out again for hannah's bday today, this time we went to dinner at chevy's. it was a decent amount of people, and it was good times. one reason why was because roy was the life of the party. he was definitely making the effort to be the star of the night, and rightfully so. although most of his jokes were very corny and he was getting nervous often, it was ok. he made me smile because he was the life of the party, the only true shining star.
roy likes to watch the sound of music, mary poppins, and the princess diaries. you should ask him why. haha.
must get back to studying. payce.
Monday, December 09, 2002
happy birthday hannah!
we had a surprise gathering (not party) at piedmont for lil hannah's bday. she's 21!!!!! and she is real popular too. there were like 20 heads there. anyways, roy was also one of the people there, and i watched him interact at this little gathering. all i have to say is that i realized that he has gotten sexier than ever before. i think he's been working on his game or something, because he actually made some funny jokes today. and he also didn't give away hannah's surprise, which was in itself very surprising. two thumbs up to the new roy!
by the time i'm 21, i'll be like three months from finishing school, hopefully. that is, if i don't fail out. haha. :-( i'm kinda scared what the future holds for me. i've been talking to a bunch of people about our futures and stuff, and it's honestly kind of scary. we're gonna be graduating so soon and heading out into a place where we can't sit on our butts all day long and just fool around. we're gonna have to become responsible not only for ourselves, but eventually for others as well.
actually, i'm kinda looking forward to it. at the rate schools going right now, anything would be better than this.
actually, maybe not. i kind of need a job first.
i'm screwed both ways. but perhaps looking at a picture like this will make me happier.
o yeah, i'm still screwed.... haha.
Sunday, December 08, 2002
in response to the picture in my previous post:
oo phatyum oo: YOU LOOK LIKE A PLAYBOY BUNNY!!!!!!!
oo phatyum oo: cuZ LOOK AT YOUR OUTFIT!
oo phatyum oo: and it looks like you got
oo phatyum oo: BUNNY EARS!!!
more like chippendales model.... playa!!!!!
hahahhahahahhahaha
here's the pic of what i wore to brother's appreciation night. this pic is funny cuz it looks like i have antenna. haha. o yeah and that is jane moon.
roy told me i should add a commenting thing on my blog, but i decided against it. i didn't wanna give people the ability to respond to my thoughts, good or bad they might be. hahahaha. how cheap i am.
i ate dinner at the dc tonight, it's been a while since i've been there. someone i ate with said something hilarious. but i'm conflicted as to whether or not i should write it. it was so funny though.
i gotta read. please help me.
Saturday, December 07, 2002
kennis kim (2:58:15 AM): wanna go boarding in an hour?
this is exactly why i didn't bring up my board. i so wanna go.
i will study hard. i will study hard. i will study hard...
:-(
awesome awesome banquet. i was thoroughly impressed with all the thoughtfulness and effort put into everything. i'm glad that we have such a great class. i think we're the funnest group at berkeley, by far. hopefully someone will get some pictures up so i can put up a link. but from the food to all the cool stuff we got, it was awesome! thanks girls!
but, the things that happened after ban sucked. i went over to john's place at around 10, and we waited for some other people til like 11, 11:30. then some things came up so that we ended up not doing any of the things we had wanted. so i bunch of us played games at john's place. it was pretty fun? i guess but so unfulfilling just because it was our backup plan. i feel like i have to go do something now because i feel veeeeeeery veeeeeeery unsatisfied with tonight. ahhh.
and i eventually had to take off that cool tuxedo shirt because it was pretty small and started cutting off my circulation. it has to be the best shirt of all time.
i'm bored and tired and not feeling good. peace out.
Thursday, December 05, 2002
ooooooo. the nastiest thing happened last night.
we were having dinner in the lab while we were programming. carroll had brought some take-out from la val's on north side; some pasta dish, while dennis and i were having la burrita. anyways, we were all eating when all of a sudden he's like, look at this guys.... and pulls this long, thick, oily, extra curly pube out of his food. it was disgusting. after like 2 minutes of staring at him in pure astonishment, he throws the pube away, and says, now you know how hungry i am to still be eating this, and he calmly finishes his plate.
carroll is a trooper, a real-life soldier and a half. either that or a sick human. regular hair is fine, but pubes are a little too much for me. good thing he didn't pull it out of his mouth. i would have barfed.
if eugene reads this, he will barf.
Wednesday, December 04, 2002
last project of the semester has been completed.
one more problem set and no more work to do this semester.
just mad mad studying left. i'm screwed. two stories however...
in cs lab they were giving away free donuts so some guy came down and announced it to everyone. everyone rushed upstairs to get the free food. i have never seen such a large group of ugly, smelly, slightly overweight people move so fast. it was disgusting. but the donuts were good, yum.
we lost our softball game last night, so we're out of the playoffs. played a decent game, but the other team rocked us. at the end, eugene was talking and then he asked me to close, or so i thought. i started praying and i heard some guys laughing, but i just kept on praying. after i finished, all the guys were so confused, cuz apparently weinie said that he would close for us. that summarizes this whole semester. i've been so out of it. hopefully i can bounce back for finals. i will.
and the countdown begins, 13 days til freedom.
Monday, December 02, 2002
awesome awesome break. too bad i had to come up to berkeley and get back to my projects, papers, and finals. sadness.
highlights of the extended weekend:
1) thanksgiving. great to see family and eat.
2) saw tammy.
3) played in the turkey bowl. we got to the quarters, but we should have gone further. only if i had freggin made the pick instead of letting the ball slip out of my hands. it was wet, but i was so close. i'm gonna be hating myself for that for a while.
4) went out for tj's bday. the waitress at the restaurant was semi-cute, and my dear friend Brian Shin was pretending like he didn't find her the least bit attractive. too bad it was freggin obvious that he wanted to impress her. when she brought our food, she was like, hey this plate is real hot, to him. he thought she was being sarcastic cuz she had been earlier that night, and was like, no biggie and took the plate. as soon as he grabbed it, his hands started shaking and he said, "yeah, that's hot" and calmly put the plate down. right after he put it down he said, "it's ok, i'm a football player" referring to the fact that he played in the turkey bowl the day before. he claims that she left the table, but that was the biggest lie, she was right there when he said it. by far the best moment of the break. after dinner we made fun of him for a long long time. so next time you see butch, make sure you holla at the football player. hahahahha.
then i went to church and now i'm here in school. long ride up with nancy and jenny. but it was good conversation.
i go to sleep now, i'm gonna die these next three weeks.
peace...... PLAYA!!!!!!
Tuesday, November 26, 2002
in lab... yes again.
this is the story of my life.
i "finished" my cs project.
(in quotes because yes i did finish coding, but i did not test it thoroughly. i only tested the parts that I knew worked. haha. o well)
now i get to go back and write a paper. not too discouraged though, i have some done already, so like 3 more pages and i'm done. then i get to drive home tomorrow. and CHILL until i come back up and have to come back here...
yes, the story of my life.
so today's great lab experience: none. not too many ugly people today, as i can see. maybe because not many people are here. haha.
God is calming me a lot these days...
I've been reading the Bible before bed and doing a short qt thing and it's honestly changed my perspective and attitude a lot this past weekend. He is amazing.
O yeah, had dinner with freshman James. Crew star. Studly man. I predict he will woo many girls. Our small group is the inverse of Soda Hall. There's a lot of good looking people. Well, at least the freshmen are good looking. That counts for something right?
Man I'm shallow.
Sunday, November 24, 2002
wow. another testament to the loser ugly people in lab.
i was sitting here trying to do some work, when these two girls came into lab. they were all dressed up, but i assumed since they were here in lab at 1am on a saturday night, that they had a project or something to do, especially since they logged in too. however this was not the case. i guess they had nothing better to be doing, so they came to lab to chill for a bit and talk to people and stuff. i wasn't trying to eavesdrop or anything, but they were so ridiculously loud that i could not think. and on top of that they were ugly, as all eecs girls are. but they finally left to go drink somewhere.
i guess they need the alcohol to put them out of their misery. hahaha. i would if i were them.
wait, what am i saying... i'm one of them...
but i don't need the alcohol...
i need some food!!!!
what a sad environment i live and work in.
Saturday, November 23, 2002
Ohio State won. Finally! Now they're headed to the national champsionship.
Cal won. Finally! Freggin beat Stanford after 7 long arduous (hahahahha) years. I was there. good thing i told roy to buy tickets. you should thank me roy.
Got snowboard gear today. M3 board, gnu bindings, and thirtytwo boots. i'm hooked up and all ready to go. too bad i still need to learn how to snowboard. but i can't wait!
Back in lab. It's gonna be a loooong night.
Peace out.
in lab here once again with basile. we were planning on getting here on friday at 11am, and wanted to stay until fic at 7pm, with a break for lunch. turns out i woke up at 12, we ate at 1:30, and got to lab at around 2:30. it took us around 3 hours to write a couple lines of code, because we were not working very efficiently at all. went to fic and then came back after.
it's 3:42am right now. i think we're only 1/3 done with the project. good thing i have no time tomorrow cuz of the big game, and on sunday either cuz i have thanksgiving dinner, and on monday either cuz i got a paper due on tuesday.
people here in lab are pretty annoying. i think that most of the guys must be playing for the other team. can't pinpoint exactly why, but just don't picture them with any type of female whatsoever. read my post from a couple days ago, maybe that will tell you why.
lab warps your mind of its sense of time. it's pretty cool how being here can make you feel so sick. haha. well, that actually shouldn't be a laugh but instead some kind of sad sound. life as a cs major, exciting ain't it?
Friday, November 22, 2002
in roy's plight to put something substantial on his blog, he just put a link to mine instead. how cheap.
therefore it is with great pleasure that i present to you 10 reasons why roy is a cool person:
10) he is really amazing at the guitar.
9) he likes using people
8) he likes making paper cranes
7) enjoys blowdrying his hair
6) doesn't shower for days on end
5) likes to be mean to me
4) doesn't get nervous around girls
3) who has a car without power windows or locks?!?! roy does!
2) paid for my big game ticket
1) likes watching the sound of music and mary poppins
and these are the reasons why we love roy. Thanks!
Thursday, November 21, 2002
i just realized something while sitting here in lab. i've known about this for a while, but now it is my duty to impart this information to the world.
98% of people in the lab here in soda would be called ugly by society, myself included. half of these people are butt ugly, myself excluded. That means that almost half of all people in here programming are butt ugly. And i'm not joking about butt ugly. This makes me sad for a while, but then i realize that i already have a girlfriend, and she can see past this ugliness. I feel like the more i'm in here, the uglier i get. ahhhh.
eecs majors are by far the ugliest group of people here in berkeley, and possibly in this world. how lucky i am to be part of this select group! woohoo!
how is roy not in this major?!?! he would fit right in... haha.
Tuesday, November 19, 2002
just finished going phase 2 of telebears. if everything goes according to planned, this was my second to last telebears. nice.
i can't wait to get out of here. berkeley has warped almost all of my energy and strempf. you know it playa.
why do i blog? i thought it was so i could remind myself of all the fun times when i look back, but honestly, when am i ever gonna do that? by the time i do, this website is gonna go out of business and then everything will be lost. on top of that i can't even write about what i'm really thinking. this leads me to two conclusions.
1) stop blogging.
2) get a blog that no one knows about
3) get a real journal
i'd rather type and not handwrite so getting a journal is out of the question. as for a secret blog, someone is bound to find out. i'll still update once in a while with cool stories to remember, but i'm gonna try and get to know people better not by reading their blog and feeling all close, but by talking to them and chilling with them.
don't blog to impress people with your witty stories or what not. i know we're all guilty of this. what a loserish way of trying to get people to like you. if they know you well enough they'll like you anyways, reading something won't change that.
i think that spilling your guts out in such a public way is kind of cheap, and you just want attention. as robin once put it, "don't be an emotional whore". don't think i could have said it much better. think about it. we just tell people everything about ourselves and feel this emotional bond because you let things go. granted there is some bond there but i think that's cheap.
some people say stuff cuz they wanna get things off their chest, and i don't wanna question them or whatever, but i guess it's just a little weird.
hope no one thinks i'm talking about them because i'm not. i guess i'm being a hypocrite because i let stuff off my chest too.
o yeah, but why do people have counters? ever since everybody and their mothers got a counter and comment thing, no one has ever said anything like "but it dont' matter cuz no one reads my blog anyways" hahaha. now you know everyone is doing it for the hits, which just validifies everything i said. payce
Monday, November 18, 2002
great weekend. quick recap:
watched my bro's homecoming game. close game, but eventually they lost. it was a lot of fun though. he scored a touchdown, so it was real cool. go burbank! haha
went to turkey bowl practice. we literally practiced all day, but it was a lot of fun. still pretty sore, but it's all good. can't wait for the actually tourney, our team is stacked and ready to go.
spent some quality time with tammy. ended up going to pomona and met a bunch of her friends which was cool. had dinner at her restaurant on saturday with jason, dennis, and tj which was real good. then spent some time with her and watched a dvd. not too exciting but good times nevertheless.
had lunch with fabian right before i came up. that fool hasn't changed a bit. got caught up with each other so that was pretty cool. seems like i'm losing touch with a lot of high school friends, so it's cool to meet up with him once in a while.
even though we won our softball game last night, i've been hating berkeley since i got up. i'm so confused, and i don't know what to do. school is bugging me like mad, and i'm lost. i need some direction in my life. i don't wanna really go into any details though, cuz i don't want people to be all up in my business trying to help me out. that's cool and all, but sometimes you just gotta take of your own stuff you know? you know how it is. anyways, i'm outs for now playa. can't wait til thanksgiving
Tuesday, November 12, 2002
i have one project to do, but i'm still excited cuz i get to go home this weekend. i get to visit jason and kevmeister over at ucla so i'm excited to check out their pad and spend a day with them. i also get to see tammy even though she's gonna be super busy. best fit time into her schedule though for me, playa. and guess where i'm going tonight? that's right!
L-A-B
woohoo!
Friday, November 08, 2002
i haven't blogged for a while, and there's a reason for that. i was in lab for the first half of the week, and after we turned our project in i did absolutely nothing. and i'm very proud of this as well. because guess what? next week i have two more projects due! one on monday, yes it's due on veteran's day, and one on thursday. after that i'm driving home to watch my brother play in his final football game, homecoming vs. burrougjhs. i'm actually very proud of him, even if he doesn't know that. he's getting to do what i couldn't do in high school, and so i'm happy. he scored a touchdown last week, here's the link. search for hwang and you'll see his name! well it could have been me.... but i guess that's just a dream...
i'm so excited to go home. i need to get away from here. i would write more about my experiences in lab, but honestly, i want to forget them all so i will not bore myself. i will say one thing..... lab sucks. i've also realized more and more how much i actually hate my major. dang...
can't wait for thanksgiving, turkey bowl, and then winter break. really can't wait to snowboard even though i suck.
random thought: i love the smell of freshly cut grass. i used to play soccer when i was little, and i still remember the smell of the grass on gamedays (saturdays usually) where we would run on the field all ready and pumped up, in our nice, clean uniforms, ready to play in the game that we had waited for the whole week. The sunshine, slightly damp grass, and crisp cool air were perfect conditions. Ahhh, those days. I reminisce whenever we go practice softball or play football on grass, cuz I can still smell Saturday game days on those fields too. Someone has to know what I'm talking about... right? haha.
good times: when you're riding down the mountain on your board up in tahoe where the snow is nice and powdery, carving and seeing snow all fall over the place.
bad times: trying to go off a soft powdery jump and running right into it.
we all know we've experienced both.... or wait.... am i the only one?
peace out. i'm tired. and guess where i get to go tomorrow.
L - A - B.
Sunday, October 27, 2002
long weekend.
got back from retreat last night, and that was a nice and relaxing experience. the bus got a flat on the way there, and we ended up spending five hours on it. luckily it wasn't as bad as it sounds. it was a good time of just chilling and talking with people. so that was fun. the schedule got screwed up but it ended up being ok because we got extra time to just spend with classmates. i can't believe we're juniors already. disgusting. only one more year left. good times.
got back from church today and ended up wasting a grip of time instead of doing my project that's due tomorrow. boo. at least the angels one. and thanks for dinner nancy! it was good stuff. we played softball but just a scrimmage because the ohter team didn't have enough players and had to forfeit. it was kick back but i ended up spraining my right index finger while fielding a ball, which isn't good news because i got a project due tomorrow and i haven't started. sucks.
it took me forever to type this because my finger does not function. just one part of the body causes me so much frustration.
i don't like my major and i don't wanna do this project. dang it.
Wednesday, October 23, 2002
tammy left today. we had a great weekend though. went to a bunch of places, sf, oakland, berkeley, pinole, emeryville, and did a lot of things too. i'm glad we were finally able to spend a weekend together. it was fun. but now she is gone, which is not fun.
anyways, i bought a new pair of shoes yesterday. nike air max 90. old school stylin, just the way i like it. but they were dang expensive. i usually don't spend that much on anything, let alone shoes, but i decided since i had just gotten my last paycheck, i could afford to buy myself something nice. so here's the story. i bought the shoes from footaction which had just opened in the hilltop mall, and i was a pretty easy sale even though the workers there were like trying to get me to buy everything there. it was funny. so i bought the shoes, and was ready to leave when i realized my credit card was gone. the cashier had supposedly given it back to me, but it was nowhere to be found. i was so pissed cuz it disappeared like in a second. so i searched eeeeeverywhere i thought possible, and the conclusion i came up to was that the lady behind us had stolen it after it had fallen to the ground. i ended up calling the bank right there to cancel it, but on the way out we went the same way as the lady because she had parked where we had parked, but we were still a little distance behind her. but by the time we got out to the parking lot, she was gone. i knew for sure that it was her, and i started getting real pissed that someone would do something like that. ahhhhhh. i was pissed for a couple of hours..... until....
i went to go pump gas, and right before i left i gave my wallet to tammy and told her to look in it again to make sure the card wasn't there. earlier i had known that i didn't want to make a scene if my card was just in my wallet and i had failed to see it. so i looked in every pocket and made sure it wasn't there. however about thirty seconds later tammy made a discovery that made me feel really sad and jerkish. the credit card was under my id. when i had pulled my id out to make sure the card wasn't there, the card came out underneath the id and i didn't notice it. i called the bank again to unblock the card, but it was too late. now i'm gonna have to wait 7-10 business days to have money again..... here's what i learned....
1) Don't judge other people
2) Don't spend a lot of money
3) Don't be a jerk
4) Don't be stupid
5) I miss her already
g'nite
Monday, October 21, 2002
i'm a sore loser.
i think it's because i have no competitive outlet other than softball. i'm not too competitive academically because i end up losing all the time. so i basically have to resort to softball. and that's not good because i really suck at it. so basically the only way i can compete with people and win is with games i play against people where they don't know i'm competing. for example seeing who can eat faster, or drive faster, or stuff like that. i'm a loser, i know, and i'm a sore loser too.
although i could go on and on for hours about all the things that went wrong today on the field, i've decided to invent the thirty minute rule. no feelings of anger or sadness thirty minutes after the last out, last tackle, last basket, whatever. i was having a great time today until the game, and i realized it's a waste if i let this stupid game ruin this. i played bad, our team played bad, and that's that. we lost to the eastbay team, raging bull.
on another note, i feel really sorry for andy cuz he slid into first base while wearing shorts and gave himself a nasty rug burn on his shin. really gross. and on top of that he has a research paper due tomorrow morning at 9 which he hasn't started. :-(
the raider game was awesome. thanks tammy! even though we lost, it was awesome to be in a stadium packed with fellow raider fans going nuts. it was exciting. i vow to go to another game next year, and once i'm rich, i'm gonna get season tickets with my family! and dress my kids up in raider gear too. haha good stuff.
so it's been thirty minutes now, no more being sad.
i like writing short sentences with nice concrete sentences.
i'm glad tammy is at least up here, so i can't really stay that sad, even though i suck.
i don't wanna go to class tomorrow. peace!
Friday, October 18, 2002
wow, what a long week.
33 out of 45 hours of my life starting tuesday night were spent in lab. no comment.
however, today i went to best buy to go pick up the new j5 cd, and i saw a football game on xbox so i went to go play it. i was playing for a little bit when a kid, like 16, 17 came over and was like.... hey, is that NFL Fever 2003? I was like, yeah I think so. and he watched for a little bit. then he was like, you mind if i play, and i was like, nah sure because I was getting pummeled by the computer. i didn't know how to tackle, so i asked him how, and he was like, just press this button. i said thanks and we started playing. he ran the ball three times, all for losses. on fourth down he went for the pass, and i sacked him. so i took the ball, tried three plays that all sucked. then i ran the ball and took it for a touchdown, probably a 40-50 yard run. after he got the ball back, all of a sudden he was like..... so that's why!!!! i was like what?!? he said it's because the controllers aren't set on default (that he was sucking it up). i was like ooooohhhhh... cuz it seemed like he knew what he was talking about right when i first started chatting with him. so he goes to options, and on the screen it said, controller: default. i almost busted out laughing, it was sooooo hilarious. i think he felt really really dumb. haha it was really funny though. anyways, two lessons learned:
1) don't just talk the talk, back it up.... sucka!!!! haha
2) the J5 cd is looking pretty good so far
3) i'm 20, i need to stop beating up on little kids at toy stores
on another note.... tammy is gonna be here in less than an hour! i gotta get outta here! woohoo!!!!!!
burbank football note: 52-14 loss to hart high school (same h.s. as cal qb kyle boller)
before the game my brother was like... i think we're gonna do ok, our coach wants to implement this new defense, and it seems like it's gonna work.
score after 4 minutes: 21-0 hart. hahahhaa.
like i said earlier brian... talk is cheap mother brother.
i'm out to oaktown. peace.
Tuesday, October 15, 2002
i am really dumb.
part 2 of my battle with the scooter:
i went out to the courtyard and opened up the scooter so it would stand up straight and was about to ride it when the wheel fell off. hahahahahha. i guess i showed it who was boss. now i wanna go buy a real one. i shall look online now. peace
didn't do so well on the midterm. i am really dumb.
i had to go to sproul to take care of some stuff and i got really excited to go because i was gonna ride this random scooter we have at our apt. so i head out, not wearing a t-shirt but just a sweater cuz andy said it was pretty chilly outside, and i was lazy and didn't wanna find a shirt. so i got out on the street, and started going, and realized that the scooter was freggin ghetto. it wasn't a real razor, and was really unstable and stuff, so while i was going across the street, it hit a little bump and sent me flying. luckily i didn't fall but the the tail whipped out and hit my heel, and it freggin hurt. on top of that i started to get really tired so i had to keep on switching legs. haha. by the time i got to sproul, i was sweating like mad because i had worked so hard, but i couldn't even take off my sweater because i didn't have a shirt under. i was really sad.
however on the way back i was determined to make it a better trip. unfortunately since the scooter is so ghetto i again went over a little bump and the tail whipped back and yeah... you know the story. so now i have two messed up heels where my skin ripped and no, it doesn't feel good. now i gotta go back to class, and yes, I WILL CONQUER THE GHETTO SCOOTER!
Sunday, October 13, 2002
midterm. project. paper. those three words make me so sad because that's what i have to do this week. and it doesn't help that i just came back from possibly the worst, wait scratch that, the WORST softball game that i've played in. it started off just fine, but in the second inning there was the turning point. bases loaded, two out, and we're out in the field. i get a nice routine grounder, which i glove. i look down, and because i was anticipating making the toss, the ball had come out and rolled two feet away from me. the ball dribbling out of my glove was the thing that cost us the game. you might say that no paul, it's not your fault, and blah blah blah, but in my eyes, i had the opportunity to stop the rally right there. two batters later, they ended up hitting a grand slam, that put us behind for good. two feet from making the out. one tight squeeze of the glove from making the out. one/hundredth of a second of laziness and one whole night of regrets. i pride myself on my defense, and i let my team down today. but the season ain't over yet. we'll bounce back, and i'm sure of that.
there are a line of events that happen so that a specific incident will occur. when i'm driving and see an accident, i know that if i had left a second earlier or later, that car could have been mine. all these events in this line may not seem important, but they lead up to an incident that you will never be able to foresee. i was talking about this stuff to andy, and it was pretty interesting. just solidified the idea that things actually do happen for a reason. like tonight, if i hadn't have made that error, we would have been up by 2 runs and our team wouldn't have been as demoralized as it was. ok no more softball talk now, enough of that for one day. now i can feel sad about the fact that i have to go to a cs project meeting tonight to finish up the project, and when i get back i get to study for a cs midterm. sounds exciting huh? not really. at all.
i wonder what would have happened if i had gone to another school...
Thursday, October 03, 2002
wow. such a event-filled day yesterday. first of all..... i went to one of my classes, and then i went over to eugene's to chill before my class at 4, but instead i ended up going with him to the batting cages with john song. john didn't really wanna go cuz he was napping but i was like dude... it's my birthday.... and coerced him into going. haha. it was pretty far away, and when we got there we started taking some pitches in the baseball cages. they were going at like 75-80mph. so we tried taking some hacks in there, but ended up whiffing like 90% of them and barely tapping the others. i got two nasty ones off the end of the barrel, that shook my hands up real good, leaving them sore. how weak i am. anyways, after that i went to the men's shelter with my sg to cook dinner and serve it to some homeless people. it was a good experience even though i couldn't eat with any of them, cuz i was serving the whole time. one dude said i looked like a baseball player, which meant a lot just cuz yeah... why wouldn't it?!? haha. i was a little unhappy at first when i learned that i was gonna spend dinner on my birthday there, but you know... it was sooo worth it. i just realized how lucky i truly am. after that kwan me dan charles and elise went to mel's to grab some food and then go bowling.... but stinking mel's had a broken water main so it was closed. we ended up going to denny's and then had some good ol' cooking and were gonna go bowl but it was closed like always. in the meanwhile julie dropped off this cake that was real good. it had yellow kiwi and tangerines on it. yum. not to be beaten... josei and peggy busted out this chocolate cake that looked "exactly" like my truck! it was awesome. it came complete with windows, headlights and brakelights, the tacoma emblem on the back, oreo tires, and four little pigs in the bed... although i think they were mistaken on one of them. i think i'm more of a cow. anyways, that was real cool and made me extreeeeeemely happy along with everything else i got! hannah kim brought over a card as well. and guess what?!? i'm going to the giants-braves game on sunday with tina-face! she hooked it up with tickets! woohoo! and o yeah.... the raiders-chargers with tammy! life don't get much better eh? you know how we do....
Wednesday, October 02, 2002
wow. I sure am a lucky guy. well i'm finally 20 now, and I just got back from watching a movie at weinie's place. it's like 3:30 right now too, and john, weinie and roy all have class early tomorrow. but since it's my bday, they took the time to watch a movie and just chill. pretty cool stuff. around midnight dan, taryn, janet, charles, and elise came by with a bunch of goodies, including a nice fat card and some seaweed soup. yum. and on top of that tammy got me raider tickets. and on top of that many people im'ed me and called. thanks everyone. even though you'll never read any of this, i'm really thankful that I've met each and every single one of you, and I hope that you can say the same. but it ain't like i'm going nowhere, so let the good times roll!!! adios.... and g'nite...
Tuesday, October 01, 2002
I think I had too much fun this weekend. It helped me realize how much I actually do hate school. o well. i guess I can't do anything about that. But last night was an excellent time. It was our first softball game of the season, because last weeks battle got cancelled because they couldn't get the lights to turn on. Anyways, we were up against the perennial champions, the KCPC oldies. Somehow, someway, we pulled out the win. It was awesome. Everyone on our team played well, and even though that last inning made me sweat like mad, it made victory taste even sweeter. After three semesters of losing and disappointment, I think our class team has finally brought everything together and we actually looked real solid out there today. and on top of that i made a double play. yay. i think i was more nervous after I did it than before. how weird huh? well, no more to write for now, gotta do some work. pace.
Friday, September 27, 2002
The weekend has finally come. It's Friday, and that means I'll get to see my brother play football today. Last time I saw him play was his sophomore year against Burroughs. The game was real slow though, so hopefully today's game vs. San Marino will be pretty exciting. He's probably the fastest Korean guy I know.... ahhh... I once too used to be skinny and fast. those were the days.... anyways, hope to relax a little at home before I come up to play our first softball game of the year! woohoo! if it gets cancelled again imma be freggin pissed. til next time... pace picante, it's the way to go.
Wednesday, September 25, 2002
so here i am at work today. a little more than a week and i'll be done working forever. ahhhhh. so anyways, i finally got my shift covered on friday so i won't have to worry about that anymore. we've been working on the cs186 project for three straight nights now, and tonight will make it four. it's a pretty cool project, but there are a lot of stupid little details we gotta figure out. too bad i wasn't much of a help last night... i was sooo tired from 7 hours straight of work and class and it didn't leave me much energy. well. i'm here til 4 and nothing unusual has happened yet, so i guess i'll be off now.... peace
Tuesday, September 24, 2002
drum roll please... my return to blogging! not as dramatic as i would have liked, but i guess this will have to do. anyways. i was walking to class today, and talking on the phone, when randomly, out of nowhere, an african honey bee stung me on my stinking hand! o the pain, o the horror! well, it actually wasn't an african honey bee, but it sure did feel like one. i was pissed because i didn't do ANYTHING to provoke that little bee, but it still stung me for no reason! i just looked down and there it was, sticking it's behind into my hand! and i was mad too because my streak of nearly 20 years without getting stung was officially over. September 24, 2002. what a sad day. i also quit my job today too, because i was getting pretty tired of it and i didn't wanna overload myself especially around midterms time. hopefully i'll have made enough money to buy myself a nice snowboard. anyways, i think i should get back to work ... my hand still freggin hurts!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
